February 16, 2010

  • Dear Sweet Pea-

    I love you so much.  I think I could just hold you all the time... if you'd only let me...

    We finally got to come home from the hospital yesterday after a 5 day admission for preterm labor.  Out of the strict bedrest, horrible drugs, not being able to see straight and swelling- the worst part about the last week was being apart from you almost 24/7.  I can't believe how much I missed you.  I couldn't even hug you for the first 3 days because the medicines made my muscles so weak.  I don't think I will ever be able to tell you how much I desperately love you...

    You stayed with JJ and PawPaw most of the time daddy and I were gone- but they all got a stomach bug and Uncle Michael had to take over one day- Daddy started laughing when Uncle Michael called to ask which way the tabs went on your diaper.  He had never changed one before- and he changed a dirty one!! Ha!! Your Great-Aunt Jenny helped when JJ was sick and Great-Aunt Brenda is playing with you in the living room while I rest in bed at home now.  We are so blessed to have them so close by- and that they are willing to help us. 

    I know it was hard on you this last week- you know things aren't normal and even though everyone did a fantastic job taking care of you, it's still not the same as being home with us.  You've started throwing more temper tantrums- I think you just need to get back into the normal swing of things.  I'm so glad we're back together now- even if I can't take care of you by myself, at least we're here together again.  The blood pressure medicine I'm taking 4x a day for contractions makes me so dizzy and sick- but you have been so sweet through it all.  You want to lay next to me with your head on my belly... and you keep giving Grae kisses.  You are about the sweetest little girl I've ever seen. 
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    I can't wait until our little family is all home and healthy... just a few more weeks and we'll be there.

    Lots of love, Sweet Pea.
                                               -mommy